Monday, July 13, 2009

Tony

I miss Tony. 
No one gets it outside of my family. They're great, but I want my friends to understand.
Someone I love is in prison. He murdered someone and he's doing his time. I feel safer with a murderer as a friend than I do with a priest, or a youth pastor, because I know he is glad I exist and wants me to be around. Even if for now its only through letters. 
Its hard. And when I try to talk about it, they change the subject and act as if I wasn't even speaking about something that pierces me to the heart. 
I felt invisible on Sunday, and angry and hurt. I think my time there is over, but I don't know where else to go. And how can I explain to people who don't get it that they've hurt me so much I just want to leave it all behind? 

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