Once a month I get upset about being single. I noticed this pattern last month finally. Just one week out of every month I feel the weight of my status as single and really get annoyed by it. And it always seems that right in that one week, the one guy who I can't seem to get over, is always more attentive. Like today, he saw me standing alone, so he bee-lined it right to me. Thing is that he never does this. I could be standing alone waving at him and usually he walks right by. Not this week, this week he sees me and comes right to me with no encouragement from me. Only to leave my poor heart beating faster than it should yet completely unsatisfied with the thought and presence of him, yet the total confusion of whether or not he's noticed that I in fact melt at the very sight of him. Probably not. So I wonder why its so hard to get over him. If he doesn't notice me half the time, and the other half just confuses me by flirting and being great but then not following with anything. The book echos "He's just not that into you" But somehow I just don't buy it all the time. Then logic kicks in and says "duh, why has it been so long and you're still not with him?" UGH...