RRRGGG

I don't care who you are. If you  make a mistake you need to fix it. And there is NO reason to get pissed off and make someone else feel stupid before making it their responsibility to fix your stupid mistake. 

Lame!!!

So, maybe I can be touchy, and take things a wee bit too personal sometimes when its really not. But today I'm annoyed and taking this personally because damit it made me angry. 

When a friend invites you somewhere, even if its just to visit them at their place of work don't go and make other plans to AVOID going to that place. Just say "No". And REALLY! What is more important?! A friend, or getting "all natural no preservatives organic food" (when said place of work SERVES THIS!!!!) when it doesn't matter what you put in your body ANYWAY because the Bible freaking says so and if you READ and BELIEVE the Bible like said friends do then EAT WHEREEVER YOU WANT AND GO SEE YOUR FRIEND WHO WANTED TO SEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GEEZE! LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME!! 

Once a month I get upset about being single. I noticed this pattern last month finally. Just one week out of every month I feel the weight of my status as single and really get annoyed by it. And it always seems that right in that one week, the one guy who I can't seem to get over, is always more attentive. Like today, he saw me standing alone, so he bee-lined it right to me. Thing is that he never does this. I could be standing alone waving at him and usually he walks right by. Not this week, this week he sees me and comes right to me with no encouragement from me. Only to leave my poor heart beating faster than it should yet completely unsatisfied with the thought and presence of him, yet the total confusion of whether or not he's noticed that I in fact melt at the very sight of him. Probably not. So I wonder why its so hard to get over him. If he doesn't notice me half the time, and the other half just confuses me by flirting and being great but then not following with anything. The book echos "He's just not that into you" But somehow I just don't buy it all the time. Then logic kicks in and says "duh, why has it been so long and you're still not with him?" UGH... 

Grrr...

I feel generally hostile right now. 

Freaking angry. 

Upset.

I've been clenching my jaw so long my teeth hurt. 

I wish hitting things was a good idea. 

I even wish hitting people was a good idea. 

That'd make me feel best. 

For now I'll just sleep.