Wrong Road

I think I left part of me laying on that couch three years ago. And last night she found me, or I found her, and now I can't shake her off. I left her on the couch for a reason. I don't know what that reason was, and I don't think I even knew I left her there. But this feeling must have been why.

My life should have worked out differently. It should have progressed in some other way. I expected to be living somewhere else, with him, being happy. Instead I'm living by myself, hoping to afford a cat. I wonder if I missed the turn, or turned when I should have gone straight and now I'm lost, but everything is familiar. I don't remember missing a turn, or making a wrong turn. But I hope I find redemption along this road.

I'm moving out. I woke up this morning, decided it was time, went out and found an apartment. In less than two months I'm moving out and will be living by myself for at least a year. Wow. I never thought the day would come. But here it is. I'm excited like crazy, and also scared out of my mind.

Unrequited Love

Once again, I've fallen in love with someone who isn't retuning it. My heart is heavy, and feels like it could sink and fall out my toes. He says I'm "something else" and "intense". And I'm worried those are two reasons why I'm 25 and still single. I hope I can get over him soon. But as for now I'm pretty much in danger of feeling miserable for a while. I hope I don't botch this up.